how i loved you [or the alchemy of heartbreak]
how i loved you
no one understood the torture–
the sweet musk of ache in my heart
no one knew you utterly macerated
my sweet butterfly in your gaping mouth
but I knew
(and I let you)
(and I let you)
a thousand flutters of longing–thrusting
in a moonlit garden of jasmine
while, for ten years, I lingered there
your treacherous touch, the enemy of love
between the lies and the passion,
your gaze was an empty vessel, draining
i tried to give you, with my heartsong,
the fullness of my flower
always you
back to your desert
then returning to my garden of delight
(again)
(and again)
how i loved you!
(do you know?)
your being, oh how i hungered!
the taste of your sweetness on my lips
turns bitter now
and empties out
dwell now, in your desert
i return to my garden
my butterfly is free
from your tormented heart
(finally)