*sin·cere /sɪnˈsɪər/ –adjective, -cer·er, -cer·est.
1. free of deceit, hypocrisy, or falseness; earnest: a sincere apology.
2. genuine; real: a sincere effort to improve; a sincere friend.
3. pure; unmixed; unadulterated.
Today, I found myself using a “sweet” voice as I was trying to get a salesman to go away from my door. I really wanted to shut the door in his face. I don’t like his company and I told him that. Not wanting to be “rude” has always made me overly polite to people that are rude and annoying. Watching myself be “sweet” when I wanted to be FIRM was interesting. I was firm but I didn’t need to try to smooth it over with sweet.
I’m going to keep watching because what I most want in my life and my art is to be sincere. Not influenced by others, not needing to be nice or liked or WHATEVER. Just me.
And so it is.